Romantic feelings without romantic feelings

I don't know...

I love you, I want to do all the romantic things with you, I want us to be more then friends, something special, something more. But i don't like to call that and us a relationship. I don't like the Name of it. I want to be you boyfriend and do all that boyfriend stuff but i don't like how it sounds and feels to call it that. Something like that... Yeah..

I want to do all that stupid cute romantic stuff with you but i don't like the Name relationship for it. I don't know...

I am fine with being called lover but boyfriend feel so mhh not really like it...

There is Something special with you and us but i don't know I don't like to call that a relationship, I don't like to call us boyfriends. I would call us lovers. But i don't know what we should called that what we have. I want to do the things like in a relationship, but i don't like the Name relationship. I want to be like a boyfriend to you, but i don't like the Name boyfriend for it. We would do still all the same thing like boyfriends or relationship would do. I just don't like to name it like that. Because it feels not like it. It doesn't fit. You special and i love you, but not in a relationship way, in a way there is Something really special and i don't want to call it a relationship because it is Something else something i can't explain. Yes i know.... I love to do all that.. But i don't like the Name relationship for it.. It's something else something special and important and romantic but not in a relationship way, I can't explain these feelings, it's like... When I call it a relationship then it doesn't feel that special and right. i don't think i would call it anything, naming it... would make it small, it is sort of...infinite... And something special.. with you it is easy. Yes... The Name relationship just don't fit... Because it's not like that to me.. It's something special. It just not a relationship.. When I think of relationship then I think of my old ones and they Was not that special and right and easy and good... With you.. Us.. This is Something else.. More special.. I don't like to call it relationship because it feels then to me like a thing this is just a just. Its like...

Did you watch good omens..

Aziraphale and crowley have something special.. Others see it as a relationship.. But it's not like that.. It's something more special.. They love each other in a way that is just different like just a relationship or just boyfriends. And this is how i feel with you. 

It's something Indescribable.. Something like soulmates but not really in that way at the same time.